Friday, July 14th, 1995
Today is Daddy;s 37th birthday and two weeks ago, my first kiss. I wrote Jon. It was 9 pages long and in the letter I wrote what I felt, like how I loved looking into his eyes, being in his arms. How I loved the slow dances and I thought I’d melt when he kissed me. I told him my real name and I told him it was my first kiss. I didn’t want to lie.
The cabin is gorgeous. The car ride yesterday was a pain in the butt. My sister is so annoying. She took my letters and tried to read them, lied and got me in trouble. Cody was good in the car. Better behaved than the both of us. I have a head cold. We went into town (McCaysville) to get a dog brush for Cody, medicine and a bandanna for me. I bet the town’s population is less than 200. I probably have more people in my neighborhood than in this town. We tubed down the creek. The water wasn’t that cold. I sat on a rock in a creek and thought if I were to have a honeymoon anywhere it would probably be here. I’m hoping in my heart that one day Jon and I will marry. I love him. I miss him. I think about him all the time.
If Jon writes me back after that confessional it will be a miracle. It’s cute that that 14 y.o. Danielle thought a Honeymoon in a cabin in the Georgia mountains was romantic. 28 y.o Danielle was smart and went to Hawaii.
Wednesday, July 11th
News Flash!!! On Monday I got mail from Ashley (AC) and ta-dah- Jon!He said he’d write and he did! Wahoo! Yes!! According to his letter he thinks I’m beautiful- I have nice eyes, smile, hair, and personality. He’d really love to see me again and wants my number. nd he wants my picture. He wants to send me one later because he has no good ones. I think he’s interested in me. But he doesn’t really remember me because I’m not beautiful. But I’ll let him think that.
I’m on vacation in South America right now (Iguazu Falls, holla!) trying not to contract Yellow or Dengue Fever, be attacked by a monkey, or get kidnapped. In honor of my trip, this is my favorite photo of my first trip to Italy in 2001.
Saturday, July 8
My sister found or actually saw Jon’s name and the word kiss in here. Yikes! I told her a little lie to cover it up. Last night at 10:30 was the 1 week anniversary of my first kiss. Which was real. I got mail today. A postcard from Val and letters from Katie and Carter from cam. I’m babysitting Travis. Well he’s in bed asleep. The Braves are doing well. 8 straight wins. Dave Justice hit a homer. So did Chipper Jones and Steve Avery. I really hate Jennifer A. who babysits for Travis also. She is a blonde dork. I still love Jon.
Perfect c. 4/1/98
The girl you thought was perfect
and on top of the world
has fallen off her post
Now ragged and in tears
jumbled up fears
she’s like a a ghost
she vanishes from time to time
her “perfect” body’s been
denied of love
Is she really falling apart?
Could it be she left her heart
out to dry?
And forgot to bring it in to dry when
it started to rain?
She’s not the same,
not the sane girl everyone knew
You wouldn’t recognize her now
She’s not high on her pedestal
She’s not perfect anymore
Was she ever?
Today’s throwback Thursday post is dedicated to Kristina on her birthday. Simmons College, 2004 wearing identical WOSP Osprey Radio shirts.
God this is embarrassing. I hope that Jon doesn’t remember me and never finds this blog.
Thursday, July 6th
I miss Jon. I’m in love with him. Almost everything I think about or song I hear, I remember and think of him. I can’t really picture his face but looking into his eyes. I mean we danced looking into each other’s eyes. Talk about intense. When I hear the song “When You Say Nothing At All” by Alison Krauss, the song (well one of them) we danced to, I stop what I’m doing and pretend I’m dancing with him. Last night I had a dream about Jon and a song “Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow.” I love Jon. I love Jon. I wrote him and I hope he writes me back.
I went to a pet shop today to pick up hamster bedding when I saw 3 kittens. They were so precious, I wanted to take them home with me but I’m not allowed. They licked and nibbled and rubbed on my fingers and purred. I wish Willow was like that to me. But I think I gave her the impression when she was tiny that I was rough. I manhandled her and constantly picked her up to give her love. I still do but not as much as my sister does. The poor cat meows if she walks by.
The Atlanta Braves are #1 in the AL East and #@ in all of the NL. The Reds hold first. The All Star Game is Tuesday the 11th. In 2 weeks we’re going to the cabin. We have to take Cody with us. That won’t be so bad. But I’ll be in the mountains- cool air and peace and peace. I miss Jon. I miss Jon. I’m in love. I’m in love.
Skeleton Girl c. 1997
Skeleton girl by the pay phone
who calls you?
Is it your stung out lover?
Is it your mother?
It’s not like you’ll go very far
except in the backseat of a car
Skeleton girl by the pay phone
The call’s for you.
This sounds like I ripped off a Lisa Loeb song.
2004 at at quarry in New Hampshire. I think.
I’m really glad I was able to move on from that unfortunate hair and those awful sunglasses.